Please Wear The Face, The One Where You Smile,

I have little time left. Little time, before this summer ends. And you know what that means.. Means i have few moments left here in Malaysia.

Its always hard to leave. Its always hard to see that empathetic emotional look my family and friends have everytime i have to go. Eventhough they don't express it literally, i can always sense, that sort of feelings, close to mourning.

For those who know me best, For Faris, Bryant, Aishah, Fasha, Nadira, Zaahira, In case you are reading this, as i set on another year abroad, and as lethargic and dried out i may sound, know this, none can replace you guys. Enough said.

Thank you, For being you, and for being here.

Aishah is noob because she left before this picture could be taken.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEalqARKrao - We were on crack. Fullstop.

I'm A Daydreamer, With Tiring Thoughts.

Hye, this blog is old and unfurnished in so many ways. Seems like its been ages since the last time i wrote something here. Oh Shoot, i make myself sound so old.

Where to start? The last time i posted was a year ago and my oh my, has it been a gruesome year for me. I got what i asked for, being a medical student is not like a walk in the park. I'm officially a 3rd year student now, having finished my exams of 2nd year.

Well i wont blabber much about studies and what not. Its always boring and predictable.

What i am going to tell is, how i feel at the moment. (its a free country and its been a while since i've expressed anything substantial)

I feel.. Worn out. No, not because of my forever demanding course or my constant daily routine. Its something more hefty, like love for example.

I sometimes am so amazed and amused, both usually revolving simultaneously, when i see how a couple (yes, boyfriend and girlfriend) can accept each other, complimenting each other with their own, each unique personal attribute and attitude. And how it then leads to marriage and being together till death do them part.

Sometimes, when all hopes are lost, you start to believe that you are not cut for this thing. This thing you called, Love. And how annoying it is, when it comes without a warning, like a tsunami, attacking when you are most vulnerable, only for you to fall again, to have faith.. again.

Its like a never ending cycle, ceaselessly throbbing hearts, weighing hard on your shoulder, sigh. At least that's how i feel. And i'm sure that its no different with you.

And sometimes, daydream always seems like a much more painless alternative. To push away the cold and unforgiving reality, even just for a short while.

Ok, enough from me. Till then. :)

Butch Walker - Mixtape

Stop Right There,
That's Exactly Where I Lost It,
See That Line,
I Never Should Have Crossed It
Stop Right There..

I know you have your reason. Although, I am never sure what it is.

So Fly Free Blackbird, You Know I Love You. For Every Reason, So much..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJDQC4NR6ZY

Awi Says That Soon Enough, Things Will Work Out.

I know you're reading. Have faith, I'm not leaving. I promise We'll work it out.

:)

Well I'm The First To Fall, The Last To Know.

You were just waiting for me to screw up.

Oh My Darling, Don't Be Surprised If You Get Bent Over. Oh It's A Lost, Just Because, It Wasn't All That You Thought It Was.

Kaspersky Says, I Fight Too Many Viruses.

It's Friday, finally again. I look forward to every friday because its a fun day, it's always a fun day. I mean, its the last day of the week and its when people just unwind and relax. For me, i have futsal at 6 till 9. Heh, how cool is that? While bukak puasa i play futsal. People always ask, especially Faris and I, (since we are the only muslims that play futsal and football like mad regardless of the season) how do you guys can ever fast and play sports at the same time? Isnt it tiring? Dah la you guys cant eat but then you guys run like mad dogs, better than the ones who are not fasting.

We just replied, dah biasa. Besides, we love futsal/football too much that it is practically inseperable. Haha, It always amuses them that sometimes we can play better than when we are not fasting. Yep, Faris and I were always there and will always be :)

Anyways, after futsal, Khong invited all of the boys for a round of clubbing at Mist Club. He said, It is some sort of going-away party because I'm leaving to Russia in like less than 2 weeks and our Desmond boy is starting his Law degree very soon. All the boys are going to be there, well most of them. Haha, I'm just going there to see how insane they are going to behave and look when they are drunk, along with all the girls that are gonna be swarming that place. It's going to be funny. Faris and I are just going to sit back, listen to music, dance a little bit.

Well, I'm off to sleep, i have a long night tonight. Toodles

Hello Seattle, I Am A Sleeping Pill.

Tersentak seketika, melihat kerenah ibu bapa semasa berbuka puasa. Mama yang terasa hati dengan kelakuan babah. Aku cuma melayan makanan aku. Bukak puasa hari ini agak berselera bagi aku, mungkin sebab bibik menyediakan antara salah satu makanan kegemaran aku, lontong. Tetapi, jauh di sudut hati, aku hanya dapat terbayangkan how fragile and delicate it is a woman's heart. Termenung seketika dibuatnya selepas solat maghrib.

I miss you. I really do..

I Am An Astronaut, With A Hefty Thing To Say.

Terpinga-pinga juga dibuatnya. Tak pernah lagi terasa sedalam ni. Sigh, terasa sayang sangat, everything you ever wanted, everything u ever wished for, is just there, but you just can't seem to reach it.

Maka saya terdiri daripada orang2 yang rugi, teramat rugi. Hati yang tulus mencintai, dibuang berciciran. Mungkin terlalu leka dengan menjaga perasaan sendiri, perasaan orang yang tersayang, dibiar sendiri.

Lagu Mr. Right by A Rocket To The Moon terus berputar berulang kembali. Maybe i was never meant to be your Mr. Right but i want you to know how badly i want to be him because i want nothing more but You..

For I Have Sinned For Being The Worst. I Never Meant To Hurt Or To Leave. Forgive Me Love..

It's true
The moment he layed eyes on you he knew
The only wish he wanted came true

He knows he's lucky that he met someone like you

Bukan Kerana Tidak Sayang

Saya Mencuba, Tapi kadang-kadang teramat susah saya rasa untuk tahu apa yang kamu mahu. Atau mungkin saya belum tahu

Bukan Saya Yang Menentukan.

Good God,
I Know my future has been foreplanned,
I Know that it's not for me to decide,
But I beg You,
Oh Grace God, I solemnly beg You,
Let It Be Her.

Because I Don't Want To Love Another, Like I Love Her.

-the end-

I Got A First Class Ticket To A Night All Alone.

Nah, I know you won't understand. I don't expect you to. I just wanted you to listen. Was it that hard?

I Swear I Didn't Mean,
For It To Feel Like This,
Like Every Inch Of Me,
Is Bruised, Bruised.

Jack's Mannequin - Bruised

Saya Cuma Manusia Yang Banyak Bersabar.

:)

All Again For You.

I Let You Take The Wheels,
And The Driver Seat,
Strapped In,
So You Get The Best Of Me.

We The Kings - All Again For You

Sayang, Saya cuma binggung.

Driving With Brakes.

Hello. It's been a while eh? I can't even remember when was the last time i utilized this column. Nevertheless, I'm Here, Alive, In Russia.

I have a lot to tell of course but I don't know where to start.

Anyways, here i go.

It's been super hectic here, with my life especially. Been so occupied with studies and being a human being. Yes, I'm learning to be an adult although it's not an easy task, well at least, not as easy as i thought. Everyday I go even wearier than before. I want to be a kid, want to be so badly now. I want to put my palms in the sky and for once breathe without worries. So many responsibilities, ones that i can't bear or failed to bear. Haha, it ain't fun anymore, no it ain't fun.

Love,
I want You,
but I am unsure,
You might not want me too,
for who I am.

God, Tell Her, I'm Lost

Curently listening to : Tell her this - Del Amitri

Hi And Bye.

I've finally received my offer letter to Russia.

This is getting nauseous.

We'll pray, No one will recall.

Seven Years Acoustic.

Event : Nad and Ira's Farewell Party.
Date : 9.5.09 (Saturday)
Venue : Izuan's

*This is a little overdue because Nad and Ira have already left to Negeri Sembilan and Kedah respectively. Nonetheless, i guess this post is about saying goodbye, officially.

All i have are pictures of that night. I don't think i can ever explain how memorable that night went on. All i know that Nad cried when i was talking to her. Couldn't believe how fast the year is passing us by.

One of these days, we'd part. It's just a matter of time. :(





Guitar Hero. Izuan's TV is gigantous!!


Zaa posing.


Picture of the night :(

I thank you for everything and godspeed my dear, :)

If only I had truthfully seen,
That night will never relive,
Just close your eyes,
You'll never see me crashing down.

Soasin - Finding Home

When Awi Starts Learning Russian.

How annoying it is to learn a new language? Let me tell you.

In Russian language there are 10 vowels (instead of 5 in English), 20 consonants, 2 alphabets to make the word either hard or soft. It's considered as one of the hardest language to learn.

Here are some basic words I've learned

Hello - (zdrastvuyte)
Hi - (privet)
Good night - (spoykoynoy nochi)
Bye-bye - (paka paka)

some basic sentences

I love you - (ya tibya lubelu)
Everything is fine - (vishyo harasho)
Nice to meet you - (priyatna paznokomitsa)
Tell me please, where is the shop - (skazhite pazhalusta gde magazeen)

*Nuts, i tell you. That is only the pronounciation. The real alphabets look even scarier.

Don't say I'm the one you want to lose,
Don't say I'm the one you want to lose.
Saosin - 3rd Measurement In C

I Did Lie But Didn't I Tell You?

It's been 3 days in succession that i've been sleeping kate, practically at 5 am in the morning. It's tearing my body i have to admit.

Went to sleepover at Bryant's house on Wednesday to watch football match between Chelsea and Barcelona. Before that, we had futsal at Samba.

This is what happens when you have TK and me playing PS2 on the bed.



The bed actually broke because we were so excited playing Winning Eleven. And in the end, I won. Haha, 7-4

Have you ever had the wallpaper on your phone as Bryant?



Yup, this is my wallpaper now. -.-

Oh, and Faris has finally passed his driving test.


:)

Lesson of the day : Trust you is just one defense.

To Hell And Back.

Chelsea vs. Barcelona

As you all know I am a Chelsea fan and their game between Barcelona gave me the scare of my life. I was so worried the fact that Barcelona have such a strong attacking force. That means, they are capable of scoring at any given time.

And of course, the saviour of the day would be none other than Chelsea goalkeeper, Petr Cech. He's effing good and that's why the game ended with a goalless draw






*I give the credit to these three footballers which i think are at their peak. Eto', Henry and Messi.


Manchester United vs. Arsenal

This game is genuinely interesting eventhough i don't fancy of both these teams but they give one pack of a performance. And in this case, i salute the very best of everyone's All Time Favourite, Cristiano Ronaldo.

At one point in the game, he shot so fierce and hit the crossbar. By the way, he's extremely fast



The winner was MU with a 1-0 victor. O'shea scored the winning goal at 17th minute.

As Legal As I Am.

18 is a big number Nadira Aqilah Bajuri. Happy birthday. Call me if you want your shopping voucher :)




Lesson of the day : Xiang is a fucking mad guitarist :)

3rd Measurement In C.

I don't even know why the purpose of blogging about this but nevertheless, I'm as happy as a monkey. And the reason is because my band can finally cover 3 Saosin songs. Yes, 3.

I think that Saosin is an extremely good band. So, that's why i think it's an honour and a major step for our band to play such songs.











We manage to play Seven Years, 3rd Measurement In C and You're not Alone (i know u like this song, Nad).

On a lighter note, i have finally learned how to scream. I will upload the videos of us jamming soon

Lesson of the day : Sakit tekak la Cik Kiah.