Please Wear The Face, The One Where You Smile,

I have little time left. Little time, before this summer ends. And you know what that means.. Means i have few moments left here in Malaysia.

Its always hard to leave. Its always hard to see that empathetic emotional look my family and friends have everytime i have to go. Eventhough they don't express it literally, i can always sense, that sort of feelings, close to mourning.

For those who know me best, For Faris, Bryant, Aishah, Fasha, Nadira, Zaahira, In case you are reading this, as i set on another year abroad, and as lethargic and dried out i may sound, know this, none can replace you guys. Enough said.

Thank you, For being you, and for being here.

Aishah is noob because she left before this picture could be taken.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEalqARKrao - We were on crack. Fullstop.

I'm A Daydreamer, With Tiring Thoughts.

Hye, this blog is old and unfurnished in so many ways. Seems like its been ages since the last time i wrote something here. Oh Shoot, i make myself sound so old.

Where to start? The last time i posted was a year ago and my oh my, has it been a gruesome year for me. I got what i asked for, being a medical student is not like a walk in the park. I'm officially a 3rd year student now, having finished my exams of 2nd year.

Well i wont blabber much about studies and what not. Its always boring and predictable.

What i am going to tell is, how i feel at the moment. (its a free country and its been a while since i've expressed anything substantial)

I feel.. Worn out. No, not because of my forever demanding course or my constant daily routine. Its something more hefty, like love for example.

I sometimes am so amazed and amused, both usually revolving simultaneously, when i see how a couple (yes, boyfriend and girlfriend) can accept each other, complimenting each other with their own, each unique personal attribute and attitude. And how it then leads to marriage and being together till death do them part.

Sometimes, when all hopes are lost, you start to believe that you are not cut for this thing. This thing you called, Love. And how annoying it is, when it comes without a warning, like a tsunami, attacking when you are most vulnerable, only for you to fall again, to have faith.. again.

Its like a never ending cycle, ceaselessly throbbing hearts, weighing hard on your shoulder, sigh. At least that's how i feel. And i'm sure that its no different with you.

And sometimes, daydream always seems like a much more painless alternative. To push away the cold and unforgiving reality, even just for a short while.

Ok, enough from me. Till then. :)

Butch Walker - Mixtape

Stop Right There,
That's Exactly Where I Lost It,
See That Line,
I Never Should Have Crossed It
Stop Right There..

I know you have your reason. Although, I am never sure what it is.

So Fly Free Blackbird, You Know I Love You. For Every Reason, So much..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJDQC4NR6ZY

Awi Says That Soon Enough, Things Will Work Out.

I know you're reading. Have faith, I'm not leaving. I promise We'll work it out.

:)

Well I'm The First To Fall, The Last To Know.

You were just waiting for me to screw up.

Oh My Darling, Don't Be Surprised If You Get Bent Over. Oh It's A Lost, Just Because, It Wasn't All That You Thought It Was.

Kaspersky Says, I Fight Too Many Viruses.

It's Friday, finally again. I look forward to every friday because its a fun day, it's always a fun day. I mean, its the last day of the week and its when people just unwind and relax. For me, i have futsal at 6 till 9. Heh, how cool is that? While bukak puasa i play futsal. People always ask, especially Faris and I, (since we are the only muslims that play futsal and football like mad regardless of the season) how do you guys can ever fast and play sports at the same time? Isnt it tiring? Dah la you guys cant eat but then you guys run like mad dogs, better than the ones who are not fasting.

We just replied, dah biasa. Besides, we love futsal/football too much that it is practically inseperable. Haha, It always amuses them that sometimes we can play better than when we are not fasting. Yep, Faris and I were always there and will always be :)

Anyways, after futsal, Khong invited all of the boys for a round of clubbing at Mist Club. He said, It is some sort of going-away party because I'm leaving to Russia in like less than 2 weeks and our Desmond boy is starting his Law degree very soon. All the boys are going to be there, well most of them. Haha, I'm just going there to see how insane they are going to behave and look when they are drunk, along with all the girls that are gonna be swarming that place. It's going to be funny. Faris and I are just going to sit back, listen to music, dance a little bit.

Well, I'm off to sleep, i have a long night tonight. Toodles

Hello Seattle, I Am A Sleeping Pill.

Tersentak seketika, melihat kerenah ibu bapa semasa berbuka puasa. Mama yang terasa hati dengan kelakuan babah. Aku cuma melayan makanan aku. Bukak puasa hari ini agak berselera bagi aku, mungkin sebab bibik menyediakan antara salah satu makanan kegemaran aku, lontong. Tetapi, jauh di sudut hati, aku hanya dapat terbayangkan how fragile and delicate it is a woman's heart. Termenung seketika dibuatnya selepas solat maghrib.

I miss you. I really do..

I Am An Astronaut, With A Hefty Thing To Say.

Terpinga-pinga juga dibuatnya. Tak pernah lagi terasa sedalam ni. Sigh, terasa sayang sangat, everything you ever wanted, everything u ever wished for, is just there, but you just can't seem to reach it.

Maka saya terdiri daripada orang2 yang rugi, teramat rugi. Hati yang tulus mencintai, dibuang berciciran. Mungkin terlalu leka dengan menjaga perasaan sendiri, perasaan orang yang tersayang, dibiar sendiri.

Lagu Mr. Right by A Rocket To The Moon terus berputar berulang kembali. Maybe i was never meant to be your Mr. Right but i want you to know how badly i want to be him because i want nothing more but You..

For I Have Sinned For Being The Worst. I Never Meant To Hurt Or To Leave. Forgive Me Love..

It's true
The moment he layed eyes on you he knew
The only wish he wanted came true

He knows he's lucky that he met someone like you

Bukan Kerana Tidak Sayang

Saya Mencuba, Tapi kadang-kadang teramat susah saya rasa untuk tahu apa yang kamu mahu. Atau mungkin saya belum tahu

Bukan Saya Yang Menentukan.

Good God,
I Know my future has been foreplanned,
I Know that it's not for me to decide,
But I beg You,
Oh Grace God, I solemnly beg You,
Let It Be Her.

Because I Don't Want To Love Another, Like I Love Her.

-the end-